Asthma

I have a lot to be thankful for.  I am so blessed with the family God's given me.  My children....the one's I prayed for.  I am thankful God.....so thankful.
  I need to find the blessings in everything....because there are blessings in everything....in everything.  It's hard sometimes to find blessings in asthma though.  My sweet little boy sometimes struggles to breathe.  It's something he was born with.....from the moment of delivery my little man seem to struggle.  A short NICU stay because he couldn't catch his breath.
  As he approached a year old his breathing problems got worse.  Enough that it landed him in the doctor's office frequently, the specialist office and the emergency room.  Why God?  Why does my baby struggle to breath?  Why can't he run and play without coughing?  Why can't he smell flowers like everyone else?  Why is he allergic to so many things?  His sisters sleep through the night peacefully.....he can't.   I am frustrated God.....
  Those thoughts still cross my mind sometimes.  Especially at 3 am during nebulizer treatments when sleep evades him for coughing.  God, will he be able to play football when he grows up......like he so wants to?  Will he have to carry an Epi-pen?  Will he always be on medication?
  I do have to say he is improving. Things aren't as bad as they used to be.   Each asthma attack...though sometimes scary does seem to decrease in intensity.  That is a blessing!  Maybe at some point he will even out grow it.....there is always hope!  And....there are other asthmatics in my extended family....there are others that feel this also.
  In counting my blessing I do love the cuddle time I get with him.  The 3 am nebulizer treatments have given us many hours of cuddle time.  No one else awake....just he and I.  Snuggle time on the cozy couch with a blanket and his nebulizer.... I am thankful for that.  I have an extra bond with him that asthma has facilitated.  I will count that as a blessing! 
  I also thank God for modern medicine.  Truly a blessing.  I know God doesn't require medication to heal....He is the Almighty Healer.   He has a plan and He is in control.  For that I am truly thankful.
  Because I am tired....I will sign off.  My son is peacefully sleeping and I should close my eyes as well.